There are many , many reasons why I left Islam. But the most substantial ones were as follows.
Aisha’s marriage : I couldn’t accept a man who is supposed to be a role model and the most infallible man ever could marry a 6 years old child. I looked at apologist excuses such as girls mature faster in hot climates, it was normal at that time. They are all dismissed with the notion Muhammad is claimed as the best man of all TIME. His action has set up as a precedent of child rape and marriage in Islam as they don’t see nothing wrong with it. I felt sick everytime imagining how Aisha would look at 6 next to a 51 year old man, how he looked at her when she was 9. If you sexually attatcted to children, you are a pedophile. Muhammad was a pedophile, who also wanted to marry a baby after watching her crawl in front of him. If Muhammad wanted a wife, why not choose any other woman in Mecca? Why not Aisha elder sister , Asma? She would be a much better logical choice. Surely all knowing Allah would know in years to to come, his most beloved would be accused , (rightfully so) as being a pedophile.
Sex slaves: 4:24 allows the rape of married sex slaves. I found the whole notion disgusting and the words ‘right hands possesses’ makes me outraged. Women aren’t a object or a mans mere posession. I hated the cruel, callous way Allah talks about these women. Were they just objects to him? I couldn’t accepted the fact my prophet acquired his wife Safiya after killing her tribe, her brother, father and husband and raped her for 3 days. She was 16. I couldn’t accept the fact Muhammad did the same yet again with a 15 year old Jewish girl Reyhana. It was sickening. Clear rape. I cannot stay in a religion that allows sex slaves.
Wife beating – 4:34 allows wife beating. This is morally wrong to anyone with a sane mind. Why did my god think it’s acceptable ? Some apologists try and twist it and make it less evil by inserting the word (lightly) . As if it matters. The arabic word used means ‘strike ‘. Pure and simple. This is disgusting. The fact my prophet condoned and allowed this and even punched Aisha in the chest, shocked me.
Women as inferior – why is our testimony only half of a mans ? (2:282) why do I inherit half of what a male gets ? (4:11) why did my prophet say I am deficient in intelligence and religion? Why does Allah say men are degrees above me(4:34). Was I not seen as human? Or just an object to be convered, always with a mehram. It did not appeal to my ideas. Women are equal to men. I resented male dominance in my life , and I discovered my beloved deen, was at fault also.
Jahannam- the idea of hell is the sickest , most deprived idea ever conceived by the human mind. I couldn’t handle the fact most people alive , including my family and friends, and potentially me, would be in hell. Eating food from the tree of zaqqum, boiling water , thorns, discharge of pus. Dragged in iron chains and punished with hooked iron rods. Bitten by giant snakes and scorpions whose bite you would feel for 40 years. Angels would smite our backs, our faces will be scalded off and new ones to replace, Alhamdulliah. So we may feel the ‘everlasting torment’. And this is for ETERNITY. Whilst Muslims get to drink wine and honey and sit on thrones and eat fish liver and mock us whilst we beg for water. I don’t think anyone deserves such a level of torment. Just for the simple thing of not believing in a fallible desert cult and a book in a foreign language. What sort of megalomaniac God can oft proclaim he is most merciful , most forgiving as he inflicts tortute on so many helpless humans. His own creation. That’s a huge fucking paradox. It was unfair. It sounded more like fearmongering to me.